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I’m So Sorry It’s Been So Long! 

Me and Master have been going through ALOT in our LDR (long distance relationship). And I have also been going through a lot in my own personal life, so let me update you guys on a few things. 
1. Today marks four more days until our ONE YEAR anniversary!! 2. Master C proposed to me in May! May 19th to be exact! 3. I just moved into my very first, very own apartment. 4.Got a promotion at work! But every thing hasn’t been glitter and gold. Master C has recently asked me to give him space. Now let me tell you what I did for him to ask that of me. I lost my submissive ways , I have been acting out and not being the woman I promised to be to him. I KNOW im a submissive woman, it comes natural to me and it makes me happy! BUT being submissive in a LDR isn’t as easy as I thought! I don’t want to say being in a LDR takes away my desire to submit but it puts a strain on things. 
A lot of people have the idea that a submissive woman is a weak or insecure woman. Which is false. And I know this to be false because the moment I stopped fully submitting to Master C is the same moment I felt insecure and afraid that Master C eventually, one day, may leave me. Me being so insecure and scared inevitably lead to me pushing Master C away. Picking at him, nagging him, disrespecting him and bullying him. Master C is a very patient man, he’s understanding, and he’s secure with himself as a man. But eventually he got tired, he asked me to stop doing those things and I have been trying so hard to do that. To stop being insecure, weak, and afraid! And it’s so easy to do that when I take a look at the past year and realize that, (excuse my slang) IM TRIPPIN’. No but seriously, this man has done nothing for me to act this way. So I’m done with that! I’m not losing a good man in this world full of bad people. 
Currently I’m happy! Happy is actually an understatement but what I’m trying to say is I know my Master is going to be my Master for the rest of my life. He has literally shown and proved to me EVERY DAY for the last year that he loves me, he keeps his word, and he is very trust worthy. I decided last night there’s no way I’m losing that. 
I’ve missed writing!! I’m feeling emotional as I type this. This feels like something I’m supposed to be doing! More topics and blogs coming soon. I love you all. 😘

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Just a rant….

I’ve come come to a point where choices and options are limited. Giving up and calling it quits looks real nice right now. Unfortunately I can’t because I’m blessed with strong mind and as much as I want to give up I can’t because I know all the things that I am capable of. I see the potential in my self even though this cold world is trying to tear me down. Another reason I couldn’t give up even if I let myself is because guiding and leading the way for me is a man with 10 times the strength of I, patience that knows no limit and a heart of pure gold. He’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. I’ve never been cared for or loved in the way that he does. He sees that same potential that I see in myself if not more, he pushes me and encourages me in every way possible. He never lets me think of myself as less because he sees me as a woman and person deserving of the best. How he does it sometimes baffles me. I cry thinking about how he sees me. Because he really sees ME! For all that I am and for all that I can be! How amazing is that. Even if he’s the only person who ever sees it, someone has seen me! So beautiful….

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I’m so sorry

Haven’t posted in a while…things have been weird. I’ve been going through a lot and pushing away from Daddy. Im noticing that’s something I do when people start to get close to me. I’m afraid of loving and losing, just like everyone else, but the man I call daddy is unlike any other person I’ve ever met , he loves me and needs me and won’t let me go. He’s obsessed with the way that I love and care for him. He lives for me and would die for me. He will never leave, purposely hurt me, or forsake me. He is honest, real, giving, intelligent, so very patient, kind, sweet and so much more. I feel like I’m in the most amazing love movie never written. Things have been SO hard on us. I felt like I had no advice for anyone else. And I’m still feeling that way kind of. But I’m working on pulling daddy closer instead of pushing him away. I won’t let my mind try to protect me from the real thing. To all my readers or followers I am so sorry it’s been so long since I have written, to my Daddy, My Master, My King, I apologize to you even more. I will be back in action and you guys can count on some great sub\dom relationship blogs coming your way, I’m going to sleep because I told daddy I would, signing off, Submissive Queen…..

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Find A Master Who You Want To Serve!

When Master C asks me to do anything at all, no matter what. I do it. No matter how big, small, or crazy it’s done. Why? Because I belong to him! He is my master and my leader and I trust in him and I am an extension of him, so whatever he needs its very important that I do and complete. Now, like most things this is easier said then done. But for the most part I am never hesitant. And I truly truly WANT to do it. It’s never like pulling teeth. For example: Master C asked me for money so we could both invest. He didn’t even need to tell me what it was for, although he did of course because he loves and respects me. But he didn’t have to! If he said give me x amount of money, I would have said yessir. Because any cent that I earn does not belong to me it belongs to the both of us. I go to work and do my thing for US. Not me. He gives me reason and purpose, so it’s so easy to give him whatever it is he’s asked for. He encourages me to be better and he increases my hunger for success just by being in my life. Find a master who you want to serve! Find a dominant who you hate to tell no. Serving my future husband is my purpose! Making him happy is my daily goal! I live for that. And that’s why no matter what, and I mean anything my daddy asks for, he’s got it. No questions asked. Serve your Dominant, because your a Submissive Queen!

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He carries his weight and never complains of how heavy it is

People often forget to take other people feelings, opinions and thoughts into consideration. Today I took a minute to think of all the responsibility my Master has. I took a second to put myself in his shoes, and try my best to imagine what he goes through. When I did that, it not only brought me to a deeper understanding of his point of view, but it also brought me closer to him. It’s easy to forget sometimes how much weight is on his shoulders, because he carries it with pride, and never complains about how heavy it is. (That, I also never thought of either, he never ever once complained about his duties as a master.) It kind of reminds me of a crew member and a manager at a fast food restaurant. The crew is expected to do a lot of the foot work, which you see, on the register, at the drive thru window, on the grill. While the manager is usually in the office, doing things that are equally as important as the crew members, maybe even greater. Because they’re in the office, sitting down maybe at the computer or on the phone it seems as though they’ve got it easy. Don’t forget that the manager has got to oversee the store, the employees, the food times and dates, order shipment, count inventory daily, etc. The list goes on. I hope this analogy got across the correlation I was trying to express. Although you put in so much effort daily, don’t forget about all the important office work your Master puts in around the clock. Remember all that your master goes through! Often put yourself in their shoes and try to relate to and understand them! They work and provide for us in multiple ways, they are responsible for keeping us in line, keeping track of us, and investing in us daily making us beautiful people. That’s an over-time job! Take that into account when you start to lose grip of all you have to be thankful for. Pursue that submissive feeling in your gut and let it take you to places you’ve never experienced. Be a Submissive Queen.

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Take your blame with Pride

Did you know that some days it’s easier to be diligent and submissive then others? I’m talking bout a legit rough day, nothing’s going right and guess what? Daddy’s not happy either! Now you’ve got to sit there and listen to his lecture about (in my case) how you forgot to ask permission or speaking out of term, or whatever rule you may have broken on this particular day. Now with all you’ve been through today this can sometimes be the last thing we want from our leader. It’s not easy to sit there while he addresses you about something your probably already beating yourself up about. If you are already upset with yourself about it, it’s easy to get offended when your Dominant is telling you they are also disappointed, especially if your me hehe😊. Today Master C found out about a unauthorized purchase, I went somewhere without asking and by accident I spoke out of term. Wow, laying here typing this it seems as though I was being extremely disobedient today, which wasn’t really the case, just miscommunication on my part. Rules were indeed broken and he could have been a lot more upset then he was. My first suggestion for when your dominant approaches you about a broken rule, is do not get defensive. Remember at this moment, your response, the very next words that come out of your mouth or through that text pretty much determine the direction this conversation is headed. As a submissive we cannot forget this conversation originated from a rule WE broke!! What I mean is that when you get defensive it’s a weak way of admitting your guilt, also its a way of guaranteeing a disagreement. As a submissive lets also not forget that giving excuses and talking back to our dominant when they are correcting us IS disrespect! Know that your dominant feels disrespected when they are correcting you, and you begin defending yourself as if your right, making yourself even more wrong. And they still feel disrespected even if you’ve had a rough day, they have rough days too!  They have feelings,and they demands respect! My second suggestion is to admit your faults with dignity and immediately apologize and leave the excuses for the next a**hole. Today when confronted on all three of my offenses, I replied something like”I’m so sorry daddy I’ll do better” Why? Because I want to do better!! I know the rules and I want to follow them! Another reason you should immediately apologize and admit fault is because let’s face it, breaking rules is not only disrespectful but is also HARMFUL to your relationship (I’ll let that sit with you and think of what it means to you and I’ll address it in another post) so admit why your wrong and apologize with a meaningful sincere apology. I think that’s so refreshing and amazing when they see you can humble yourself and  gracefully receive the criticism. You’ll notice the difference between the two roads, the weak, defense mechanism and the strong, “your right, I was wrong”. Master C noticed. He said “I’m glad you see that you were wrong though, Your getting better at noticing when your wrong.” After that, he couldn’t be as mad as he initially could of been because of how I took my blame. The third and final suggestion is talk it out, let this be a reflection period for you, when he’s talking, LISTEN even if you’ve heard It all before, let his words be a therapeutic. Remember when he’s talking that his words are coming from a loving caring place and not a judging harsh place. Use this time to truly acknowledge your faults and know it’s okay to be faulty in his presence sometimes! He knows your not perfect and that’s exactly what he loves about you. Don’t defend yourself, don’t flip it, don’t respond with anything other that and apology! And you’ll see arguments disappear! Be a submissive queen!

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